Weekly Update 33

Well, it sure is great to see you back here again! I have some… mixed news. I got another “No!” It felt kind of nice to get any bit of news from agents, though I did stare at the email notification for a bit, afraid to open it. Schrodinger’s Cat…

Ok, now onto the news most of you have been waiting for, my first week of teaching. In a nutshell, the week went well! It started with a fair share of worrying, fretting, and general concern but eventually, I got into it. It felt like slipping into a character, “Mr. O,” and I think it came kind of naturally. My concerns shifted through the days. They went from “I hope I can do this” to “I hope I can make them think I know what I am doing” to “I hope I can survive to the weekend.” I am glad I did it, but I don’t think I can say how I really feel about teaching until I have several weeks behind me.

Outside of school, not much happened. I was a mess when I wasn’t scrambling around my classroom before (and during) students were in it. I hope to return to a normal personal life once I feel more comfortable as a teacher. Receiving that rejection was nice for that other reason: it was like a beacon of… hope? Or more like a reminder. Maybe a bat signal, summoning me to continue writing. I want to, but not until I don’t feel like I am failing the kids.

Ok guys, I will see you all next week. Wish me luck!